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Learning to stand in a new way at the festival – and reduce backpain

It’s the first day of a festival I have been excited about going to.
I arrive there and feel my belly a bit tight. Actually, maybe I ate something slightly bad. Was the aubergine ripe? Well – I don’t want to be thinking about this right now, because I want to be there, listen to music, hang out with friends, explore this space.
Walking through the festival, enjoying the first concerts.
My belly is tight, I feel a bit nauseous. I don’t want to be busy with my belly now. I want to be here. I don’t want to be nauseous. I want to listen to music.
Somehow I succeed… After a while I’m not busy with my belly anymore or the nausea. Yes!

Band of horses is fun.
Lisa Hannigan. Blows my mind! Her clear voice as she starts the concert solo touches me so deeply.
It’s raining but that doesn’t matter.
Iggy Pop. Is Iggy Pop. Fun to meet someone who somehow has been around… always… during my life.
But I’m starting to be distracted. My back hurts. In the low back. I keep moving, trying to find a new position that I can relax my low back.
The pain gets sharper. I can’t stand still for even a short moment. Of course, there is the option of dancing… But still. I try to relax my butt. Short moment of relief in the low back. Then it returns.
Distracting me, attention away from the music again.

I can’t believe that I don’t manage to relax. This is what I keep teaching people. How can I not do it myself, now that there is a moment in everyday life where I need it?
Getting annoyed. Iggy Pop spits at the camera. Fitting.

Beach House plays. I love the music. I wonder, if this is they night that I will find out how much beer I would have to drink, to not feel the pain in my back. I’m shocked that this thought could even cross my mind. (And did I really just ‘write that out loud’?) This is not what I do! What is going on? (I didn’t find out. Didn’t follow up on the thought.)
Ok, maybe just relax with the fact that this is what happened.
After Beach House there is no centimeter of extra energy for continuing the party. I bike home in the rain.
Fall into my bed, exhausted from the pain. Happy about the music and the day with beautiful people.

The next day. I am wondering how that day will go. Another day of standing around… this is probably what caused my backpain, no?
I move a lot.
Enjoy the first few concerts. Mouse on Mars is now on my list of music to explore more.
Feist live – another one of those I’ve heard so much and for the first time it’s live. I enjoy the dances.
Perfume Genius. Is genius! I am touched, blown away, so happy that I came. So happy to be able to dance (even with pain).

Still, when I just stand the pain is strong. Sharp. Going like through my back into my legs. And no amount of relaxation helps. If I relax even more my legs will just collapse.
I wonder – how can I dance all night at lindy festival, but not stay up straight during this one?
I can’t accept that ‚just standing‘ is the problem…
As the pain is taking part of my attention anyway, I go into exploration.
And during Bon Ivers wonderful, wonderful show I discover:

I need to engage my legs more. When I engage the muscles of my thighs, on the sides all the way from the pelvis and also the shins, then I can actually relax in the low belly and the low back. Then my spine doesn’t have to hold itself.
And suddenly the pain reduces.

Seriously. I’m thrilled.
I take turns in tensing and releasing different areas of my thighs, my shins, my feet.
Allowing me to let the weight of my upper body to rest in the pelvis and being carried by the legs.
Bon Iver and no more pain!
A big smile comes to my face. I am so proud, I want to shout this out to everyone! Hey! I discovered how to deal with my back pain! While I was here!

As soon as I stand in the old way ‚relaxing the legs‘ – the pain is back in the back and there is tension in the belly.
It is a new way of standing, it requires some of my attention, but now this is paired with the curiosity of how else I can stand and relax the upper body in the mean time.

And I think… maybe all of this started by me tightening up around the raw aubergine and not wanting to feel that part. I succeeded alright. But I guess, I had to deal with it in another way then. All weekend…

And then on Sunday I take time, massage my belly, rest my legs and enjoy the glowing happiness of having had two full days of wonderful music and discovering a new way of standing.


What a privilege to complain about toilet queues! (And can we ‘re-purpose’ that energy?)

After a week of feeling vulnerable and so touched by one of my wishes, I went to a festival last weekend.
To listen to music.
To be outside.
And what a pleasure it was.
I came home high on music and inspired by how well organized this was, so many people could be in one place and everything feeling calm and easy. Good food. Good music. Thoughtful performances. Weird smørrebrøds-competitions. Nice people. Beautiful people. And more good music.
All along also learning something about standing for a long time and my back (but more on that later).
The location and one artifact there reminding me of another one of my wishes – to live on a boat or some other way of living on water. (So interesting, how easy it is to share some dreams and how vulnerable with others. What makes the difference?)
On Sunday I felt tired, but nourished.

And then I read yet another crazy story from the States. And about gang-shootings here in Copenhagen (right where I live). A missing journalist and a sunk submarine. And articles about that festival and how people are complaining about the long queues at the toilet and food stands.


So there are all those stories of violence lately and craziness. I realize that I don’t want to stop everything because of them and that I need to nourish myself. And I find that we – us in the safe lives – need to take advantage that they are… safe. Enjoy the music. Enjoy the dance. Enjoy the connections. Because that’s the point, that’s what we’re trying to get to, right?
Enjoy the fact that I can wish for a room on water. Because I already am safe in my home here I can go beyond.

I see the importance, of noticing and acknowledging wishes and dreams of those who are privileged. As in noticing that they are real, also physical experiences. Because we are humans, there are irrational and emotional needs that need space and time.
Next to those other stories, I am even more overjoyed and privileged that my life can be that.

When I then hear the kind of complaining about toilet queues and danish weather brought forward with vehemence – I wonder what happens to proportions?
I mean, I can see that people’s opinions about the queue of the toilets is relevant for the people arranging a festival. (And btw to me, those were the most amazingly clean festival-toilets I have ever seen. And when there are 18.000 people – ok we need to wait.) But is this really newsworthy? And am I making it worse now, by bringing it up?
They seem so much the epitome of privilege.

And at the same time, maybe they are simply the epitome of a sense of powerlessness in the face of more existential fears?
Because, what to do about twitter fights of immature populists? How to act or walk the streets when you might be hit by a random gunshot?
How to place the anger, the rage, the fear that comes up? Moving in this human dilemma of immediate surroundings and awareness for the larger picture… How to combine it with this need of enjoying the safety, enjoying the music, enjoying the connections we have?

I don’t have answers, but the questions resonate and become the driving force to continue doing this work.
Continue empowering those looking for ways to be strong and create change, staying healthy and noticing where they in fact can and want to impact the world. And where they need to breathe, rest and learn to be with complexity and pain that can be part of life.

And then yesterday I got the chance to talk with a woman from another festival. Rethink Activism. And we agreed that I will participate and do one hour of introducing thoughts about presence and it’s relevance for our interactions with the world and making an impact. Reading from my book and sharing a couple of exercises of integrating the body in being in the world.
Hopeful and excited.

If you’re in Århus, come by and have a chat, if you know anyone there feel free to send them – I’ll be happy to meet up. September Saturday 16th 10am is the reading: Everyday Presence – is it activism?

In the meantime, I’ll be continuing this work one on one, travel a bit to Germany to reconnect with family and to Edinburgh to learn more about the body and movement.

A full month ahead and I’m looking forward.
Now getting back to some music. Enjoying and nourishing my body to be well and powerful in my interactions.

Thoughts about menstruation, pain and ‘not more than others’

How many times have I heard, when I ask a client, whether they experience pain or discomfort around the time of their menstruation.

‚Not more than others‘
‚Only the first few days‘
‚When I take painkillers, its ok‘
‚Well yeah, of course‘
‚Yeah, just like my mother‘
‚In our family it’s normal to have migraine the day before‘
‚It’s the hormones’

And somehow this frustrates me so much.
I mean – there are different aspects to consider here.
Of course, it seems wonderful not to be too distracted by such regular pain. To be able notice that things could be relatively worse and so that seems to reduce the suffering.
The part that I can’t accept though, is a kind of giving up on the idea, that menstruating can be just another natural process of the body. The resignation in a way… having your period means having pain.

Which would mean, being a woman between 12-51 (average) means having pain. And for many, many women this is true.
And along come these comments, that women are unpredictable ‚in that time of the month‘, too emotional, too…
And there is a kind of acceptance, that this is how it is. Deal with it.
But I cannot accept that.

Mainly because I know it doesn’t have to be that way: There are enough women who don’t have pain, for me to know that it doesn’t have to be that way. And there is my own experience, that I used to have pain and learned to notice and relax the areas affected in a way, that I don’t have pain on a regular basis.
There is my experience with clients, who learn to notice what they can do, to be more flexible, clear and rested instead of being overwhelmed by cramping or feeling.
Which makes me curious to find out with each new person, what it is they need to do, in order to experience this cycle without pain.

If it were the hormones – then anyone with those hormones would have to have the same symptoms, no? So, instead I’m thinking it is my (learned, unconscious) reaction to a change in my body. Whether that is because of hormones or other processes, is irrelevant, as I’m experiencing it on a much larger scale anyway. (Or is there anyone out there, who literally feels the hormones? Those tiny-tiny-thingies?)

If it were the contraction in the low belly – then anyone with bowel movement, should also experience a form of pain, every time they go to the toilet. So (hopefully) daily. Which (fortunately) is not happening. Or when it does, it is considered something to be taken care of and not ‚just something you have to get used to‘… And then when we learn to relax the belly, the low back, the buttocks, the thighs… things can change.

Not to mention how little sense it makes in terms of evolution, to have such a crucial process for species’-survival be painful…

It makes me curious to find out, how we can listen to the pain and react to it, instead of getting used to it as a background-noise of our experience. When it’s not dramatic, but always ‚in the background‘, not as bad as others or other versions of a ‚normal‘ – it might be easy to ignore, with just a little effort.

Having listened to and observed bodies, it seems to me ‘that little effort‘ over time, becomes more. Or it numbs sensations that are otherwise important and then we only react when they are screaming at us. So maybe the monthly suffering is reduced by these ‘arguments’, but affecting other areas of life or times of challenge.

Pain, I think, is part of life. So I’m not proposing that we get rid of pain. But I’m proposing that we learn to listen to it, and react, move, change – in all those undramatic ways that are possible.

Relaxing the belly in daily life. Moving the pelvis and letting go of contractions in the neck. Letting go of the assumption, that some things are just so and we have to endure them.
Inviting curiosity.

Imagine, it can be just another process, happening in your body – as many times a year as it does, not complicating your life, but actually just as a part of its’ complexity. Enabling survival, pleasure, life…

If you want to explore this with me – with strong symptoms or subtle ones or just because you’re curious… Get in touch. I’ll be happy to accompany part of your journey.


Integrity in inspiring teachers

(Part three of my series on looking for integrity in teachers, coaches, and other “inspirational authorities“.)


I’ve been moving in a lot of different contexts that involve the body and intense learning experiences – in other words intense experience of transformation and dealing with personal dreams. And in almost all of these contexts, this subject has appeared:

How to deal with teachers who hurt others using their position of power? How to treat leaders who get others to kind of voluntarily but not really be exploited – be that financially, sexually or just for power?

Places like the theater, dance festivals, and workshops, international youth work, personal development… These places have in common that the people go there with a dream. A dream to change something in the world or in themselves for the better. While the content may differ, they want to go beyond what they experience right now and do so in strong connection with other people. Learning by doing. Learning by being inspired by other people’s stories or by being in some way touched by an inspiring leader who has achieved something they long for.

These inspiring, charming leaders collect or focus the energy of two or more people to create a transformational experience in some way. This gives them great power and at the same time a great responsibility.

I think leadership (whether that is in being a teacher, a therapist, a theatre-director or a politician) is helpful to channel or focus the energy and attention of the people involved. Creating focus can be facilitated and having a clear way of distributing responsibility among those gathering around an idea very often makes it more powerful.

When paired with integrity and the willingness to continue learning and integrating the impulses of the members of the tribe (or simply the individual they’re working with), I think it is amazing that someone would take responsibility and become a leader for a purpose.

I have met amazing leaders and teachers, who have inspired me in so many ways through their example of humble and honest learning.

But I have also met the other kind. Those who ignore the fact that they can still fail, that they are profiting from people’s fears and that there is an asymmetry of power in the different roles that influences the relationship. And they ignore that they’re acting within a culture that influences how many people act habitually if no new, empowered culture is established. Those who use another person’s dream to access their energy for a project that they envision.
At times, I would even give them the ‘credit’ of not doing it intentionally, the first time around… But it would still be painful for those whose dream or wish is being drained for energy. (And latest when things repeat, it’s time to pay attention…)


In the past years, I have heard stories or received warnings about specific teachers (in embodiment practices, in dance, in other self-development techniques,…), who have behaved unethically in different ways.

And I have met amazing, ethical and empathic teachers who hold back their own teaching out of fear to turn into an ‘exploiter’.

As a client of embodiment practices I remember lying on the working table, my hands falling outside the frame of the table and when my practitioner passed, occasionally their legs would slightly brush against my hand. I was extremely aware what kind of touch that was – and which part of their lower body actually touched me. I checked all the time, whether they were pretending to just ‘happen to touch me’ with their crotch, or if that really was something that just happened. I was ready to leave as soon as their touch feels inappropriate.

This cautiousness came from another context and I have not experienced inappropriate sexual advances of practitioners personally, but my fear was keeping me alert and at times made it difficult for me to relax.


When I started to train as a practitioner, I was very self-conscious not only about touch but also about where the gaze of my eyes went, when I was next to a client with their eyes closed. When I had to stand in a way that I couldn’t avoid looking at my client’s crotch – like standing by their feet or walking around the table with a focus on the middle of the body… During class, I was afraid that a colleague would see that my eyes went that way and that they would accuse me of abusing the trust of this person lying on the table by looking at their genitals without consent.


I’m not so afraid of this anymore today. I have my intention clear, I know I don’t mean to make unwanted advances or work without consent. I still know, however, that for a client something I do might be perceived differently than I intended out of their own history or misunderstandings. Or because I was inattentive. That can be about touch, but also about something I say or don’t say. However, I know also that I am willing and able to talk with that person and figure out how we deal with the situation together.


I know that in a position of authority and power, I’m not infallible. I’m human. I’m still struggling with shame or pain, misjudgment or just blindsidedness. No matter how experienced I would become in a field, I cannot know exactly how anything would be for someone else. (Listen to Amy Matthews on teaching personal agency – she brings it to the point.)


The challenge I see with ‘warnings or non-ethical teachers’ is that we can only warn of those we know… and as long as people are still afraid, we might not find out about someone’s manipulative behavior until a large group of people has already experienced it first-hand.

Meanwhile, we lose the power of those inspiring leaders who preventively hold back, because they’re afraid they can’t trust their own integrity, once they become more powerful (comparing themselves to examples they have met).

A friend of mine recently said that “power doesn’t corrupt. Power shows where corruption was in the first place.” To which another one responded, „Yes, power is like a blender with the lid off – whatever you put in there it spreads around everywhere.”

I keep wondering how we can create a culture where we are more aware of what is in the blender. Can we empower our students, clients, colleagues to keep their critical thinking alive, at any point? Even (or especially) when they’re listening to an inspiring, charming and impressive teacher who they respect? Can we encourage them to speak up when something seems off, instead of warning others of specific individuals (which also can easily backfire because it, too, can hurt innocent individuals)? Can we create a culture that supports critical thinking and the knowledge that we can decide what we do and what we don’t want to learn from someone – also in transformational, personal development?


Can we find ways to support the visibility of teachers working with an ethical approach, who commit to receiving feedback, intervision, supervision of some sort and continue learning? Those who truly practice empowering their students and clients? Can we find a way to counterbalance the ‘exploiting industry’ by supporting the teachers with integrity to grow and become stronger?


How to create a culture of consent and respect?

(this is part two in my series on looking for integrity in teachers, coaches, and other “inspirational authorities“.)

If someone has not learned to say „stop” or „no” according to what their actual, physical and emotional need is, it is tricky to talk with them about consent. Consent is based on knowing when to say stop. Knowing that whether I want something or not makes a difference.

To say stop can be uncomfortable for many reasons – it can trigger a fear to wake up the others’ anger or disappointment, it can imply that I’m not tough enough if I need to say stop, or that I’m in some other way not as strong, smart, relaxed… as I’m supposed to be in this moment. And in the case of being in a learning environment: that I cannot live up to the apparent expectation of my teacher, coach or parent.


So, both saying stop or giving consent are based on trust and courage, when I express how this situation is for me.


When I enter a learning process with my students or clients, I assume and clarify that we’re working together. Even though for me it is obvious, I explicitly mention, that I learn about their body just as they do and we are finding a language together, that makes sense for us.
I respect them very much. Most of them are adults, living their lives, in many cases having responsibility for other people as well and no matter what they went through, they found a way to live. I know that they’re able to take care of their lives and find ways to cope, even if they might be in a moment of challenge or frustration.

I appreciate that they come to me and trust me with their bodies, their stories; that they allow me to accompany them in a process of change. And I appreciate that they in this process might question some of their old ways of doing things, in order to create a change, move a limit and experiment with the unknown. They meet me with their trust, for me to watch out that in this process, they won’t lose themselves.

A couple of years ago a client asked me to stop,

because something was hurting too much, and I reduced the pressure until she said it was ok. A short moment after she asked me to go a bit deeper again, then said stop again and so on. Slowly we managed to work with a muscle that had been very tense for a long time and it became soft. She left very looking very happy.

Early in my practice, I had learned that I need to be able to touch pain and that people can deal with more than they think. And I think, very often this might be true, but it still depends on consent and is a movement along a fine line.

The experience with this particular client surprised me with a realisation about myself as a client: I would not have said stop. I would have either told myself to be tough and endure until it’s over, hoping that my practitioner would notice that it’s too much and will stop. Soon. Or I could’ve tightened inside and left with a grudge and finding the person incompetent and avoid them further on.


Since that session, I can see this happening not only with myself (after this, I have not had another session where I stayed in something that felt too much) but with a lot of my clients and I realised that actually, the first step I need to teach some of them is about consent. What should be obvious, isn’t, in so many cases.
And I discovered a new world.
First of all, I started to remind some people, not only in the beginning but also while we’re working, that they can stop me when something feels too strong. With some people, this is enough.
Some will then say stop at a point where they’re afraid that it will be too much, rather than actually feeling the pain is too much. But that allows us to then discover this fear and move at a pace that they can follow, without feeling panicky.

Some people still don’t say stop. And I actually practice with them. We do a couple of „rounds“ where as soon as they feel my touch they voice the word „stop“ or „enough“ or something that makes sense for them. And just this exercise is incredibly powerful for many of them.

To hear their voice and to notice, that what they say matters. When they say stop, I stop.

Sometimes we end up in discussions – „but I don’t know what will be too much, I might just be scared, maybe I could learn faster if I let you just push through“… And I discover that part of this practice is learning, that it is also ok to say stop too early, notice it and then ask to continue.

I have had full sessions with clients, where we work with this. Where they learn to stop me, – someone who they know has good intentions, who they know they trust and who still might have a different perception of the situation.

Secondly, when I ask my clients to describe a physical sensation, I can see them looking for ways to describe it in a way, that matches my expectation. Or when I ask them, what they mean when they say they are sad or frustrated – I can see them looking for a description of frustration or sadness, that matches my „expert book on feelings“…

So I have started also there to be extremely vocal about „I’m not looking for you to confirm what I experience, I’m interested how it is for you“, “which words or ideas are important for you?“.
I have also started to be precise when I describe what I experience, to start with „to me it seems like there is a cold airy sensation on your skin“ – inviting them to sense something they might not have noticed. And if they can’t feel that, I ask how it is for them or what else they’re feeling.

In the beginning of this practice, I noticed, that it felt „wrong“ to ask them because I was supposed to be the expert. And I was supposed to be confident and trust my own sensation. And, of course, I work only with their consent and don’t force anything on them…

But after a while, I realised that there is no conflict with that at all. I can have experience with bodies, many different ones even and flows and processes of the body. This offers me more ways of paying attention and angles to approach my client and their learning. And I can be confident in my experience. But how my client experiences something is the relevant aspect for adapting the learning process. And if someone hasn’t experienced, how to fully say yes, because they didn’t know they are allowed to say no – how could they give full consent?

If I’m honest about wanting to teach them, I need their perception and to offer them something they can connect to. Confirmation of my personal sensation irrelevant in this context.

I can be confident, that what I felt was relevant for my experience. And it might give me a guideline and will influence how I think about the learning process I’m working with. I need to be confident, that I’m working with their consent and for this, I need to find a frame with each client about how we express it.
In the end, hearing the words my clients uses allows me to learn better with them and to describe my experiences in words that make sense in their awareness.


Both the exercise of saying stop out loud and daring to describe experiences in their own words have been very powerful. The relief that they have expressed (after a short moment of disbelief), has been remarkable and made me wonder why it seems so special?

I understand because I have also had this experience of relief in my own way. And of course, I am happy that my clients feel safe with me and that I manage to teach them something that changes the way they approach challenges and even pain.

But why is it so special, that we can say NO to someone who we trust and who we want to learn from? Why is that not the normal thing to do?

And how can we, as a community of people working in the empowerment of others, ethical leadership and the likes, foster a culture where this becomes stronger? How can we invite others to guard their borders, while maintaining our own confidence allowing our students and clients to grow alongside us?


Especially: How can we make it public and normal, that you can say no to someone’s suggestion, that you can say respect my experience and find a way to expand, that doesn’t involve questioning me?

Looking at the kindling politicians in this world, I have these same questions…
But to start with… Looking at my field of expertise, my community of colleagues, who are working towards a more healthy and sustainable world… I want to raise that subject, as it is larger than my working room. This is beyond an individual experience. We can each do our thing and we can each work with high integrity… But is there a way that we can become stronger? So that the approach of consent and acknowledging what can happen when there is a power- or authority-asymmetry, strengthens those who work ethically.

Can we gather?

I would be happy to be “a hub“, collecting and connecting people with similar interests for action. So if you’re interested in this kind of thinking process, please write and let me know. I have no plan, I just have questions and will continue exploring. (And if you know someone, who I should talk to, because they’re doing a similar thing already, I would be happy for a connection!)



  • “Tænker tit på dig og alt det du har åbnet op for mig. Jeg står stærkt i mig selv, stærk nok til at jeg kan hjælpe andre med at stå på deres måde.”

    / Hans Peter

  • “…hun er en fantastisk historie-fortæller med en no-nonsense måde at tale om personlig udvikling.”

    / Magdalena, trainer & facilitator

  • “Du hjalp mig meget med at komme ud af en slags boble jeg har været i siden ulykken.”

    / Astrid, 42 år

  • “Aninia har én helt særlig evne til at sætte sig ind i kroppen og dens reaktion på smerte. Hun er grundig, tillidsfuld og ikke mindst en god formidler.”

    / Stine, 28


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